Many individuals possess varying descriptions and reasons for their blogging endeavours. Some are so adept in writing that their blogs just engage me. Others convey a sincerity about their life or whatever topic they write about. A number of them provide such depth of knowledge and information about their craft, career, or calling that their passion emanates through my computer screen. In essence, blogs are a form of expression with each blogger creating their very own signature way of blogging.
I fall somewhere in the middle of it all. The first blog I had documented, for a very brief period of time, the latter part of my undergraduate years. I wrote about my experiences as a student in the midst of career decisions and research projects. Unfortunately, when the tides got rough I retreated into my shell and disappeared from the blog world. I wasn’t quite ready to share my very deep emotions to the blogosphere just yet. Not to mention I also became slightly more paranoid that someone could decipher my words and figure out who I am. I stopped writing and eventually closed the blog down.
I remember all the blogs I used to read and the readers who used to somehow find interest in what I had to write back then. Even though it was online and I never met any of them, I felt connected to these fellow bloggers. This connection was unexpected that deep down it probably also terrified me a little bit. The logical side battling with the emotional part. To this day, I miss that connection. It was something unique and while I still read about five blogs from my old blog roll it’s just not the same. The old connection is gone.
Now, two years later, I rejoined the blog world. My life has become less exciting and more average. The experiences have shifted gears from science to psychology. I now strive for empathic listening rather than statistical significance. From neuroanatomy to intentional interviewing. From experimental to experiential. It’s a new bag of experiences. Not to mention I now live in a different country as well.
Personally, I’m still slightly hesitant to reveal raw, private emotions yet I am now more open to maintaining the blog despite these hindrances. To address the extra paranoia issues I had, I selected the option that will prevent my blog from surfacing in google searches. I have many new blogs on my blog roll along with my originals and I thoroughly enjoy reading each one. I may not be able to keep up with my feed as much, but when I do it’s always a pleasure reading them. New connections may just be around the corner.